Questions

I think inquiry is one of the most beautiful gifts we have as human beings.  That's probably why I resonated so much with Curious George growing up

...even though on the inside I secretly hated him because he wouldn't just follow the rules.

Maybe this is the "J" side of my ENFJ coming out.  Or, perhaps this is a tension where I live and perhaps many other people live as well: In order for discovery to happen, you may have to break a few rules.

I guess no one demands that a person would have to like breaking these rules, that the consequences would always be helpful, or that the inquiry must lead to ground-breaking, news-worthy discovery.

But a life without inquiry is a self-stagnated insult.

Sinsides

Before I get too far--if you haven't seen this already, go check it out :)  I couldn't be more grateful and proud to be a part of this church family and worship team.  What an incredible blessing to be able to come home for a short little while (too short!! haha), and to be able to be with my "worshipping family" again :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-KkSARsaaA

Today marks the third week of classes, and my first actual grade has been recorded.  (Granted, it was an 80 on my Old Testament Pentateuch quiz...oh that reading!  Reading a dictionary! Ugh...Thank God the instructor and my classmates are great fun).

However, Wednesdays have become a hard day for me because they deal with my Spiritual Formation class.  For those of you who know me, you know Spiritual Formation is a huge focus of my life.  I was the girl at 17 yrs. old who was reading books like: Emotionally Healthy Spirituality and Authentic Relationships.  However, somewhere in these last five years (cue music--for those of you who get that reference), something about spiritual formation has been very painful and caustic to me.  I'm not sure what that is, but as I have been getting back into the swing of journal writing and taking my time with the Lord in the mornings (because so many of my classes want me to keep a journal...good grief!), this came out.  Not sure if it's complete yet, but something I wanted to share...part of the journey.  What does it make you think of?

Psalm 103:10-14

"Sinsides"

Somewhere in the dark deep inside

The place where yet truth revealed is hides

The place I'm lying and trying to find

Sinsides

John Calvin said that mirroring is creation

To mirror outward Creator in exultation

But a mirror turned inward is great devestation

Sinsides

Not just lost, but open eyes see

Open eyes in blidness to no longer blind be

To let these sinsides come outside of the inside of me

Released

Redeemed

Free.